Phantom Camera

Sometimes there are moments through the day that I wish I could permanently capture. Whether it's the boys playing together, our tickle fights, reading books, just resting together. Whatever is special, but so unspecial. But seeing as how I'm usually a part of said moment, it rarely happens. Like tonight. I "had" to go to Target to get some things because a coupon was expiring tonight (hey, those coupons are important!) so Brad put the boys down while I was out. I came home to realize I forgot to return our redbox movie so out I went again. Brad was in with Jack, who I could tell was having a hard time settling down. When I came back again, Jack was definitely still awake even though Brad had sung and laid down with him in his bed. Jack only wanted me. Which can be a tiring role sometimes, always being the one he needs. But it is my job and I am (usually) happy to oblige. I came in and he about spazzed out just to have me instead of Daddy. I laid down with him and he just couldn't contain his excitement and laughed for a good five minutes. Out of happiness. Because his mommy was laying down with him. It was so sweet. Anyway, after many songs, moving around, and finally getting him to stop laughing out of nowhere, he started to settle down. He kept trying to get just the right position of cuddling with me- on top of my cheek, right next to my head, my arm around him, my arm off, his arm next to me, his arm on me, on his back, on his tummy/back. He finally settled on foreheads together, his arm around my neck while the other one held on tight to his papa bear, slightly on tummy, my arm around him. It was ideal. And I finally had good access to his back. Rub this kid's back, and he will for sure slip into sleep. And slip he did. So there I was, laying down in my two-year old's bed, wanting so bad for a random photographer to quietly come barging in and capturing the beautiful moment. My sweet baby's arm around my neck and finally asleep. But the memory was not captured for posterity's sake, but thankfully it is imprinted on my mind. And now on this blog. 

And my oh my, how I live for these moments.